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We the People Walk

In order to form a more perfect body joined yes.fit back in June. Yes.fit does virtual races as a motivator for exercise goals. You work at your own pace. They’re against yourself. Depending on the race you can record walking, running, biking workouts, or even kayaking/canoeing workouts toward completion of the goal. As you make your distance, you get pictures of what you would see along your route as well as inspirational updates to help keep you motivated.

I finished my first race, the Race to Oz, in mid-July. I’m not going to lie. I did it for the medal because it sure as hell wasn’t for the pictures of the terrain between nowheresville and Liberal, KS. Look, another flat as hell shot of Route 54.

I’m now working on the We The People Race. Sophie and I put miles on that Sunday night. We’re 34% of the way through. I get an interesting picture of Philadelphia sent to me (and eventually a t-shirt.) Sophie gets a walk which suits her just fine.

Sophie-dog likes walks! Yes, she does. Oh, yes, she does.

I have 21 miles of 32 total left. Sophie-dog and I walk three miles on our walks. In theory, we can finish this race up right before my surgery.

Then I can start the Alice’s Adventure: Cheshire Cat race to track the mileage I log during the first weeks of recovery. That’s a 24-mile jaunt, which I expect will take longer than my current adventure in rambling since surgery is going to put me down for a bit.

Don’t worry. I’ve already talked to my doctor about this, and I’m allowed to do gentle walking as part of my post surgical recovery. I have no plans to overdo it.

I just want to have some way of seeing progress during the first weeks when I’m not allowed to do anything more than gentle walking.

Future life delayed on account of current life

Everything is in a perpetual state of waiting for the next thing before things can start. I feel stuck in eternal stasis, watching everything go by me. There are things that can’t done until:

After My Birthday. My birthday has come and gone.

Next Weekend. Was supposed to be next weekend last week, but this last weekend turned into another spiral of obligations, duties, and just trying to find the brainspace to think after a long week of work.

I had these dreams. I wanted to be a famous writer. I wanted to be happily married with a family and a dog. I wanted to fly jets.

I grew up to be a loser.

Okay, so I have the dog. She thinks I’m a loser, too.

Now it’s wait until After The Fourth of July because that’s the next big social event, After My Surgery because that’s my next big limiting life event, After I Pay Off My Debt because that’s where all the money goes, and After I Lose 100 Lbs because I’m too fat to love.

It’s never. Part of me is screaming that it’s never and I just need to actual own that my life is what it is and it’s never going to be any different.

I hate that bitch . It’s not like nothing is happening.

My actual life is pretty good. I have a stable home life and good friends. (Though sometimes I do really miss romance.)

The day job is full of great coworkers and brimming with opportunities. I like what I do and I have places to grow.

I’ve got some writing momentum going. I wrote about half a chapter of the book (actual writing) and I know where the rest of the chapter goes. Even know where the story goes.

I started walking again, though not regularly enough. I started keeping a food journal again because I eat my feelings. (When I am sad my feelings taste like Pepsi, mostly, with a side of Reece’s Peanut Butter Cups. Occasionally they taste like cake.)

It’s just so damned slow and I feel like I’ve wasted so much of my life trying to make this one be what I want it to be here and now instead of tossing out the things that aren’t working for me.

I need to Konmari my life.

Is that even possible? Thank the things that have been a part of my life that are weighing me down and leave them for others who may find joy in them? And if I do try something like this where do I even begin?

The monthly goals check in: January 2017 Edition

The first month of 2017 is over. It’s time to check in on how this year’s goals are going and see where I need to improve and alter.

  1. Go to 3 cycling classes and two weightlifting classes every week in 2016.  I am still fighting with asthma lingering from the cold/bronchitis I picked up at the beginning of the month. My new goal at this point is breathe. I’m scheduled to go back to the doctor on Friday morning to see what else we can do to get the asthma under control better.
  2. Follow the dietary guidelines given to me by my doctor. Coming along. Always areas to improve, but this hasn’t been a huge challenge.
  3. Finish one existing WIP every month in 2016. Nothing finished. Nothing new started. No extra energy, really. See also: breathing is an issue.
  4. Develop a list of 12 handknit items to add to my wardrobe in 2016. Started. I need to finalize the list and blog about it.
  5. Finish one new project every month in 2016. See goal 3. Right now I’m focused on getting better.
  6. Write one short story a month in 2016. Behind schedule, but in progress.
  7. Finish a book by March 31, 2016. Outline written, but I’m not sure I’m going to make my writing goal of March 31 with the short story goal. I may need to rethink this.
  8. Read 12 books by December 31, 2016. Reading is progressing, but slowly. I need a vacation and some uninterrupted reading time.

2016: A Review

Black eyed peas soaking in preparation for black eyed peas and ham for New Years Day #2017.  They kind of look like tiny disembodied Rorschach heads.

This is the time of year that we’re supposed to look at our accomplishments from over the past year and make plans for the next. Because that’s the thing we do, I’ve been giving it some thought.
I know a number of people like SMART goals. For those unfamiliar with SMART goals, they need to be

S – specific, significant, stretching
M – measurable, meaningful, motivational
A – agreed upon, attainable, achievable, acceptable, action-oriented
R – realistic, relevant, reasonable, rewarding, results-oriented
T – time-based, time-bound, timely, tangible, trackable

I hate SMART goals. Forbes magazine had a great article about why SMART Goals are sometimes stupid. I like HARD goals better.
H – Heartfelt – you need to care about them
A – Animated – they feel alive to you
R – Required – you have to do them (saying forget you to them is not an option)
D – Difficult –  hard enough to be a challenge, but not so hard as to feel overwhelming.
In no particular order, I present 8 things I’m thinking about right now which I think I should do to motivate self-growth and improvement. Why 8? Because that’s the number of things I’ve been thinking about right now. Things might be added throughout the year as I complete tasks.
  1. Go to 3 cycling classes and two weightlifting classes every week in 2016. Cycling classes may be replaced with actual biking in warmer months. Likewise, I may choose to lift weights on my own if I find a plan I really like.This is related to improving my overall health, or “being the healthiest you that you can be” as my Primary Care Physician put it. I’m not diabetic, which is a good thing, and my lipids are mostly good. We’re watching a couple of other things in the background that could become something if I don’t take them seriously, but for the most part, we’re at maintenance and watchful waiting.
  2. Follow the dietary guidelines given to me by my doctor.Most of the things aren’t huge changes. It’s a matter of diligence.
  3. Finish one existing WIP every month in 2016.
    I currently have 14 unfinished projects in my Ravelry projects, which is not in line with my personal value of “Finish what you start or cut your losses and move on.”  This goal works to address this.
  4. Develop a list of 12 handknit items to add to my wardrobe in 2016.
  5. Finish one new project every month in 2016.I only finished 9 projects in 2016. This was an improvement by 50% over 2015 when I only finished 6 projects. In my best year previously I’ve finished 20 projects. This would make 12 new projects and 12 finished off malingering projects. I want to knit more and I want to wear more of my own hand knits, so making 12 new things for my wardrobe is a way to feed into that.
  6. Write one short story a month in 2016.
  7. Finish a book by March 31, 2016. Other books may follow if this goal is met.In Stephen King’s On Writing, he says he finishes a book in that amount of time or he moves on to the next thing because he’s not interested enough in the story to actually see it through to completion. Seems reasonable enough to me. It’s not as overwhelming as trying to NaNoWriMo, but it’s still a deadline and solid commitment to finishing.
  8. Read 12 books by December 31, 2016.